Ever have that happen? You enter a season of life where the possibilities lie endless before you. Only you are rendered unable to move...completely inept when it comes to moving even one step forward in life.
Until certain pieces fall into place.
That's where I am... where we are as a family. Waiting for pieces to be laid, doors to be open, and God's promises to be fulfilled. Excited in the possibilities, yet trying desperately not to become frustrated at the lack of "movement".
The Lord has given us a vague understanding of what's to come: by His voice. by confirmation in dreams. in the Word. and through prophetic words. But we are seeing none of it.
Nada.
And it's taking everything in me to remain at a place of peace. to not rush in and "make" something happen. or cause a door to open. or turn my prayer life into a rant of demands.
Because really, I don't want human terms laid over our heavenly promise.
Ishmael and Isaac come to mind. Galatians 4 tells us that Ishmael had been "born according to the flesh" while Isaac had been "born according to the promise".
I want our inheritance to be born of the promise. Truly, I do. But sometimes the Clock of Heaven runs so. slow. that. I. want. to. throw. it's. proverbial. booty. out. the. door.
"Hello up there!! Can you even hear me anymore?!!! Because really, I'm having my doubts. Remember those promises you've repeatedly given me over the last seven years? Well...you're late on cashing them in. And I just need to give you a head's up; I'm moving on. I have to. You've left me no choice really. Emotionally, I just can't handle waiting one more day. I figure you no longer care about that which you promised me you'd do. Do you even remember them, Lord?!! Do you?!!!!"
Though that thread of thought is not where my mind is anchored... Trust me, I feel like I'm only one bad day away. one carelessly shared conversation, vented in frustration.
And so I am trying to remain silent and in control of my thoughts. so as to not spark a fire of frustration that lies dormant in my heart.
But waiting is never easy. especially when waiting for the Life Altering promises that we've received.
God, help me to remain yielded to your timing. regardless of how overdue it feels.
