fetus at 12 weeksMy husband has a blog. One that he doesn't usually use. But he did today...and what he posted broke my heart. You can see it here.
fetus at 12 weeks
But I DID manage to get the "After" shot, capturing the look of Victory on the girls' faces.
"What if I healed your eyes? made it so you could see perfectly. Would you be afraid that I'd take it away? Would you wake up every day and feel like you had to fight for that healing... Again? No, you wouldn't. You'd just receive it, adjust your life to fit the fact that your eyes were now miraculously healed, and move on.
Why are you so afraid that I'm going to take this away from you now?
Isaiah 53:10 Yet it was the will of the Lord to bruise him; he has put him to grief."
Him: "What if I said, it's not about you and what you do, But about ME and what I did?"
"if we are faithless, he will remain faithful, for he cannot deny himself." 2 Timothy 2:13



I've written this post a hundred times in my head. Clear, concise ways to intelligently document the way that I'm feeling.Yet.When I get within 10 feet of our computer, my brain freezes up. My emotions overwhelm me. and I'm left completely unsure as to what I'm even thinking.On any given day, my opinion about the topic spans the full spectrum. Most days, I walk the fence, masterfully straddling the place called "Uh. I dunno know".To be honest, my heart breaks within me (insert: this can be read as I'M CONFUSED). For I feel like the Lord has silently been stirring up the sediment that's been lying on the bottom of my heart. It's like He walked through and caused a foggy mess of my once clear life.
But allow me to back up.Years ago, I had plans for what my life would look like. they did not include staying home full time.
He changed those.By divine design, I had two little girls sooner than I expected. but I did not want to homeschool them. Even though my brilliant husband was homeschooled from K-12, neither of us wanted to follow suit.I always expected to have a few children, but I never would've pegged me to be someone that would have more than "average". God, in following suit with his "meddling" of my other plans, up and changed my heart and challenged us to trust him to plan our family.
God changed that as well.
Suddenly "6 or 7" sounded normal...

I've found, again and again, that there are times where God starts me in a particular direction in life...not to keep me going in the direction indefinitely, but to get me a better place where I can suddenly veer left.
and the fact that another one is on her way excites me to no end. FIVE girls. Ah, sweet bliss.Midwife: Our hospital has recently implemented restrictions on visitations due to H1N1 outbreaks. and their attempts to keep them at bay.
Okay, I said. I appreciated their precautions. After all, who wants sick people having free roam in the hospital...near my newborn? Not me.
Midwife: Well. No children, under 18, are allowed in the hospital. Period.
Huh. Okay. Well...I can understand that.
Midwife: And if your husband is sick, he won't be allowed to be in the delivery room with you either.
*insert crickets chirping* I had no words.
Midwife: And if you're sick, then the baby will have to be kept in the nursery for the majority of the time.
picture taken at 31.5 weeks pregnant. 152 lbs.
Little Bitty is a mover! though miraculously quiets down when others are trying to feel her kicks and jabs. Stinker. ;)
And yeah, for the record, I'm not that fair-skinned. I'm just not sure how to get the flash to work like I want it to... 


Jet and I decided long ago that our holiday goals will revolve around the Three L's... Low stress. Laid back. and Lots of Leisure time.
- Stockings over the fireplace to be filled Christmas Eve with small gifts.
- Tree hunting with my extended family (even though we bought a massive fake tree a few years back...the girls love getting together with cousins and running around a tree farm trying to find the perfect one for Grandma and Granddaddy)
- Baking Christmas cookies together...though not as many (or as creative) as I'd like to. One day...
- Get together with friends to make Rudolph cookies
- Putting up the tree the day of (or after) Thanksgiving
- Putting up a miniature tree in the girls' room
- Christmas day brunch as a family
- Doing our Advent calendar every night at dinner.
- taking cookies to neighbors (only done this once, but the girls and neighbors loved it)
- building a gingerbread house (of sorts) ;)

"Where Love abides~ Sweet Memories Linger." Roy Lessin
Worries go down better with soup. ~Jewish Proverb
Statistics talk about how few families actually sit down for a meal together, and even then, some are eating in from of the TV. And those same statistical studies show that the frequency of family meal time dwindles as children grow older.
"Social scientists say such communion (family dinner time) acts as a kind of vaccine, protecting kids from all manner of harm." TIME June, 2006
And no, Lani is not relegated to eat by herself, up against the wall. We do move the highchair to the table to include her. :) How could we not? She's soo funny!
My overall goal in decorating a house is two fold. I want to be surrounded by beauty. Yet I want it to be practical, usable, and inviting to families.
Along with the fact that it's our responsibility to go to those places and share Jesus.
I know I have to do more than put strategically placed scripture and bumper stickers up throughout the house. BUT at the same time, I know that putting those things up will help in cementing those ideals into their everyday thinking.
Love the character its dried up booty brings to the room. ;)
Kind of snazzy, huh? :D
giving us a view of a section of our backyard. and of course, at the aging back porch. :)
I wish you could have been sitting at that table. or in one of the other rooms. The fun we would have.

Welcome to my Everything Room... the room of my house that I love/hate relationship with.


As well as medication... up high and out of their room, so no one can reach it. You know, since I'd rather avoid the First Name Basis with Poison Control thang.
And yes, they are in obvious need of some refinishing. But that's so not priority.
A magazine cut out that say If He can create a plan for the entire universe, imagine what he can do for your finances." I've written about it here before.
It just spoke to me. 

my daily reminder of what I'm accomplishing. whether I acknowledge it or not. :(
It was an obnoxious little corner. Having three outside doors in a span of a few feet. Doors that leaked cold air in the wintertime no less.
The cabinet is on loan from my parents while they add an addition onto their home. At which point, Jet will replace it with a cabinet/pantry he was planning on building for my birthday (last month).


Her: Well, tell me what you ate today. (as of 4pm)
Me: 1/2 piece of toast and grapes. 1 can of tuna with mustard. soup and half of a hotdog with no bread. water and milk.
*These pictures aren't the best, but I needed (for my own sake) to document today's pregnancy look. As well as FINALLY take pregnancy pictures*

