I mean, sure, there's the obvious lack of sleep. finding time to complete simple tasks like applying deodorant. and the inevitable eating of meals while standing up.
All things that don't bode well for feeling
Usually a couple of "somethings" simultaneously.
Just call me "Queen Multi-tasker"
TASK #1:
Changing two diapers at once.
Impressive I know. That is, until you become privy to the nasty little fact that a small piece of ...*gagging*...petrified something was found on the rug the other day. NOT directly following a diaper changing.
I still involuntarily wretch whenever I think about it. Oh, and compulsively reach for the Lysol.
So maybe finding a "droppings" in the house deems me not so impressive of a multi-tasker in this right?
TASK #2:
Helping a 2 yr old go potty while keeping a 1 yr old from throwing things into the toilet.
Yes, I have had to retrieve an object out of the "water"...after said toilet had been used. Not something I aim to repeat.
*Gagging. Again*
She, on the other hand, thought the whole thing was hilarious. (as she does whenever I try to discipline her)
Her picture depicts her to a T.
The girl has a sense of humor like none of my others. I can't pinpoint it with words...but when you watch her, you can see the obvious glint in her eye.
So yeah, uh...maybe having to slosh around in those "droppings" deems me not so impressive in this multi-tasking moment as well?
TASK #3:
Teaching a 2nd grader multiplication and parts of speech while helping a kindergartner to fine tune her reading skills.
All while trying to create an atmosphere where the 2-year old feels like she's doing school. and where the 1-year old is unable to access the markers, scissors, crayons, or pencils.
She eats everything. regardless of how edible it is not. I spend my days making sure that she doesn't choke on pencil erasers.
TASK #4
Working out on a daily basis to try and rid myself of this extra weight. while trying to calm my infant, who's indignant that I dare to put her down.
The girls, seeing me work-out everyday have also started to exercise "until we sweat".
Doing sit-ups.Note to an older Raegan: I did not dress you like this. For some reason, you realllly liked this shirt. Too bad it was recently *cough cough* ...lost.
TASK #5
Spending time with the Lord in the midst of it ALL.
Admittedly this is something I don't do as much as I want to. It feels like I do a little here. a little there. Nothing incredibly deep or consistently intimate.
But I try and keep my focus on Him throughout the day. readying my heart to hear. positioning my thoughts to receive. submitting my will to worship. (We keep worship music playing almost nonstop.)
It doesn't feel like much as I move in and out of the throne room...kissing this boo-boo. refereeing this fight. wiping that cute little toosh.
Yet. He is so faithful. ...The other day I walked into the family room to this scene:
Selah on her knees, worshipping to a new CD my friend sent us: Fee's Hope Rising. Song 6: We Crown You. (love that song)But what blessed my heart even more was the fact that she and Raegan were worshipping together.
The younger learning from the older.
And my heart was filled with...something no words can adequately express.
At that point, my hygiene-deficient self was able to put everything into better perspective.
If the only thing that I get accomplished during this crazy season is teaching the girls how to live out their days worshipping...then, I'm so good with that.
So see, Self Confidence? There now, Self Esteem...it's okay, don't be upset. You are a multi-tasking momma. You can nurse and worship at the same time.
Works for me. :)
