"See, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut." Revelations 3:8
But what I'm recently grappling with is that I have a choice in the matter. a decision on how I'm going to interact with said Heavenly-assigned Door.
I mean, sure there's an open door before me. But it doesn't always feel that clear cut.
I've had those open doors in my life that graciously shout "Hello! This is a no-brainer! Walk through me. It'll be sooo good. The way is clear, the obstacles non-existent. Total. Piece. Of. Cake."
Can't you just look at that door and SEE how life on the other side would be so much better than living behind a barren stone wall?! There's vibrance and freedom and total refreshment if you step through!But then there are those doors where you just. don't. know.
Sure there's light on the other side, but...? The whole set up feels a little iffy, the outcome completely unclear.
There is no scenic view. In fact, there's no view at all. To walk through this metaphorical door feels very much like a gamble. a huge risk into the unknown.
And wanna know something personal about me? Come a little closer...I'll whisper it to you. I'm kind of partial to "known".
THEN there are those doors of opportunity where I like to just roll around in the opening, you know? Kind of bask in the knowledge that Heavenly Opportunity has picked me for the blessing.
See those blue skies? For me. And that endless expanse of ocean views? Uh-huh. For me. I'm thinkin' I must be pret-ty special to have been hand selected to travel through this VIP Door.
But one problem with that approach...
(and I feel like I'm currently there... with my pop-up camper and suitcases, sipping an iced tea and staring, starry-eyed, at my pretty door)
...is that you never move into what God is calling you to. You never move past the Jordan, so to speak, to TAKE what is being offered you.
But can I just be honest? Thanks. I will...
I like easy. I detest hard. Hard as in those amazing doors with the amazing views and amazing destinies that come with an amazing amount of WORK.
As in, I have to take the time to unlock the somewhat ajar door
Well, that is, after I climb WAY UP... so I can reach the stinkin' lock.
...or three.
I know there's a door sitting in front of me. A WIDE OPEN door, on one level. A huge opportunity on all levels. But all I want to do is find that bless-ed Staples' Easy*Button.
Which in doors, happens to look a bit like this:
I'd rather just push a button...or wriggle my nose...whatever happens to bring about the desired results. Without the painstaking work required on my part.
But as Angus Buchan (from "Faith like Potatoes) says: "If your vision doesn't scare you, it's not big enough."
Well, the vision God put before me...paired with The Door...is officially overwhelming to me. And I'm having to choose, THIS DAY, who I will serve.
My God, who shall provide all my needs? Or my Self, who shall constantly provide all the reasons why it's far too big for little ol' me?
Bottom line: I want to walk through that Door. I want to take a hold of the Destiny it offers. But I don't want to embrace the work required.
Am I alone is this ridiculous mindset of Give-me-but-don't-require-of-me? *large sigh*
But I've written about it before...and obviously needed to revisit those thoughts...
"Fight the good fight of the faith; take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made the good confession..." 1 Tim. 6:12
Because I don't want to get to Heaven and hear, "But I had so much more for you, Christin. More than you could ever dream or imagine. It was there before you. Untouched."
God help me. to pack up camp. stop staring. and start moving THROUGH the door. working towards TAKING the opportunity you've put on the other side.
