Not the most enticing end result to pursue.
But this year, I am throwing caution to the wind and setting a few goals for myself. And I will document it here.
Even if only so I can look back years from now and say "Aw, what a stupid stupid girl I was ... thinking I could raise four girls, homeschool,
But a girl can dream. And so I will.
1. Ironically, the week proceeding January 1st, I walked an average of 4 miles a day (treadmill). Then December 31st, 11:59PM arrived and Bu-bye motivation! I stopped walking. It wasn't something I consciously decided. It just happened.
My goal: To walk at least 1 mile a day. I figure it doesn't take me long. the mileage is no where near intimidating. and once I'm at 1 mile, I'm more than likely to go for more.
2. "Early in the morning will I rise up and seek thee." I want to wake up early to walk on the treadmill. Before the girls wake up.
Whenever I'm on the treadmill, the Lord starts to open up the heavens. Seriously. I actually have a notepad and pen on my treadmill, so I can write down any the many things He says.
Who knows why He chooses this time to consistently speak. Maybe it's the fact that I'm expending energy getting no where. like a hamster. and He's laughing at me and just has to share the joy. ;)
Or Maybe he's not laughing, feeling sorry for me instead. So he opts to insert wisdom. You know, to balance out my lack of (walking) progress with his revelation. He's kind like that.
Maybe it's because I'm jamming to worship music. have no little distractions running around. and therefore, he has my undivided attention.
But regardless of the why. It happens regularly and I cannot deny it. SO I want to do it before the girls wake up. That way I know I'll have actual worship time. just me and Him.
3. I want to get together with a few lady friends of mine on a regular basis. To laugh. To chill. To go deeper into the Lord together. I love the ladies the Lord has surrounded me with.
4. I want to drink lots of water. Eat lots of vegetables and fruit. and drastically reduce the amount of junk I eat. God help me. I rather have a thing for food smothered in fat. The brown, creamy kind of fat.
5. God has been challenging me to step out in a certain arena. Not too long back, I was having such an intense time with the Lord that I had to literally lay on the ground during worship. And as I closed my eyes, I had a vision. One where the Lord was basically getting up in my face. telling me that I would do this thing that he's been prepping me for.
My goal: to dive in head first. to go at it with passion. dedication. and joy. And leave the rest up to him.
A year passes rather quickly. Above all else, I hope that I can look back this time next year and see a marked growth in my passion for the Lord, understanding of his Word, and experience of his power and presence in my life.
