Put simply, I'm exhausted. Beyond exhausted...if Webster's coined a word for it.
I have a deadline for the book this week. A self-imposed one, but a deadline nonetheless, being that in a matter of no time I'll be holding a baby in my arms. And call me crazy, but I really don't expect to get much writing done in the weeks/months immediately following.
Fairly insightful of me, I know.
Two of my daughters are in Hardcore Teething Mode. Enough said. And the other two are keeping me busy with homeschooling, as I'm determined to stay on track with their educational goals. Even amidst ALLLL the other things that are going on.
And.
My body, at 30 weeks pregnant, is expanding. Which means my waist, lung capacity, back strength, and ability to sleep are fast shrinking. Ah, good times.
So yeah. I'm exhausted. It's just my current status quo.
But honestly, I'm really okay with it. I know my words may sound dreadfully pathetic. and a little pity-poor-me, perhaps? But I don't intend them to be. *shrug* They're just fact.
It is what it is.
My new life motto. It surfaced this summer because of other circumstances, but just continues to fit. Meaning, I can't do a thing about whatever "it" happens to be. It's not mine to change. nor, in most cases, mine to control.
So I refuse to waste time and energy fighting what I can't do a thing about anyway.
Life is just full right now. There's no getting around it. Tiring, yes. BUT soo incredibly full .
And honestly, my spirits are UP. How could they not be when I look at my life and am so overwhelmed with how completely blessed we are!? in every arena.
I don't have the "luxury" of self pity right now. and am not trying to conjure any up. So relax. There will be no gold-embossed (pity) party invite in your mail this week. Promise.
I'm just documenting, for my own sake, where I am in the midst of all this. So years from now when people ask..."How did you do it all?" I can say...
It definitely wasn't because I had it all together. I was 8 parts tired and 2 parts addle-brained, but thankfully the Holy Spirit superseded it all and had my back.
You know, the back that's aching really really badly right now. Yeah, that one...HE had it.
