Okay, so maybe not. I can see it now. Christin has no friends. Only a pocket protector. :)
But I would, at least, like the ability to go back in time to remember those moments that I didn't want to ever forget. But inevitably did because the next memorable moment happened. *sigh*
This past little while has proved no different. The girls have been changing rapid-fire. God has been planting visions and desire into my heart non-stop. I have been having prophetic dream after prophetic dream. Jet's and my nights have been go-go-go to the very last minute before sleep. Life has just been full!
But here are some things about my beloved girls in this past week or so that I don't want to forget...
--- Charis has taken after both her Daddy and Grandma in her love for planting and caring for a garden. She, like them, can work non-stop for hours. Just determined to make those plants of hers grow. immediately. :)
---For the past little while, she has been advertising herself as completely capable when it comes to all things difficult. Like swimming. Or playing baseball. Or driving. All things that she has yet to learn. But because she can imagine herself doing it ...or has mastered something close to the desired talent. Like the ability to, oh say, throw a baseball in the general direction of her sister, she then dubs herself proficient at baseball in general.
It drove me crazy.
Over and over, I've had to tell her, "No, Charis. You don't know how to do it yet. You still have to be taught."
And just so you can understand why I was becoming so tired of her Theology of Learning... imagine homeschooling, where I, as the teacher, find myself teaching a student who "already knows" nearly everything.
But recently, the Lord spoke to my heart. Something to this extent:
She has faith. She believes she can do it. And that's all she needs to know. She doesn't feel the need to master something...to gain the approval of someone older...in order to feel confident to step out and try it, completely expecting herself to have nothing less than success. Isn't that what faith is, Christin?
"Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen."
And I suddenly realized that I was getting annoyed at my daughter's attitude because I saw it as over-confidence that said "I don't need anyone to teach me anything." While God saw it as faith to do the impossible. All the while, I was unintentionally training her out of the child-like ability to have deep-rooted faith. A faith that says she is gifted to do whatever lies before her.
So I've been rethinking MY way of approaching that whole scenario AND at the same time, trying to learn a bit from my wise daughter about stepping out in faith. expecting nothing less than the best.
---Charis continues to be a songwriter. She'll make up new worship songs on a daily basis, sometimes even writing them down. I need to find some of them before they get lost forever! If they haven't already. :(
Two weeks ago, Selah decided to ask Jesus into her heart. There was nothing "spiritual" that preceded the decision...other than a prompting from her sister over the months. And a desire to be able to participate in our church's monthly communion like her big sister. What can I say? She likes church snack time. :)
But even though there was no outward sign of "depth" of decision from this 3 year-old, I know it was sincere. There have been many times since her asking Jesus into her heart, where she has been outside, by herself, proclaiming to our neighborhood in song or in verbal decree that Jesus has now given her power to do all things. Not really sure where she got that from...at least I don't remember telling her that. Hmmm...maybe from the Faith-infused big sister?
---Now that Charis has had her training wheels off for a day or two, Selah is determined to have hers off as well. The funny thing is that she will probably be able to master the art of riding without training wheels even though she's only three. It's just her personality to rise to the challenge and prevail.
--Here's Raegan, at 14 months, doing one of her favorite things: eating. And though she isn't a particularly picky eater, there was a short season where she would cry if you put something green (ie. vegetable) in front of her.
--Speaking of crying, she has shown a very dramatic streak. One where she will open her mouth wide and just let out this pitiful wail. even to the point of throwing herself on the floor in "despair" if you take something away or tell her no. Honestly, all I can do is laugh.
--Once we forgot to put the gate up blocking the stairs. And we suddenly realized we hadn't seen Raegan for a minute or so. Jet called out "Raegan, where are you?" And we immediately heard little footsteps racing across the floor upstairs. She was running to the bathroom to hide. :)
--The past little while has proven to be an explosion of learning for her. She's said at least a dozen new words: chicken, all gone, horse, cat, dog, bye-bye, gramma, out, duck , nose, gentle, that, .... of course, I can't remember them at this particular moment, but there are tons!
--She's recently started to tell me when she needs a new diaper ("di-dee" or sometimes she'll say "bah-bee" as she's still playing around with being able to say it)...and at times will bring me a clean diaper.
--Thankfully, she likes going to sleep. All we have to do is say "Night-night, Raegan" and she'll go around the house telling everyone night-night. She'll even start rubbing her eyes instantly. Oh, the power of suggestion! :)
--You can hear her, at times, in the middle of the night talking to herself. She's just got the sweetest voice. "Baby! doll! Baby!" It's pitch dark in there so I'm not sure why she wakes up so eager to play or talk, but it's amazingly sweet. To the point that I'm so tempted to go downstairs and get the video camera, just for the sake of getting the audio on tape. ...if it weren't 1AM.
Each day, literally, becomes more and more precious with these little girls. They are truly truly truly a joy to be with and mother.
