In John 14:12, Jesus says to his disciples,
"Truly, truly, I say to you, he who believes in me will also do the works that I do; and greater works than these will he do because I go to the Father...."
In my heart of hearts, I want to be the hands for Jesus. I want to extend his healing. his wholeness. his heart. I want to walk up to a blind man with full faith and expectation that the Power of God is working in me to heal the sick. to bind up the broken hearted. to set the captive free. (Isaiah 61)
The desire burns within me. So that the world may know that the man called Jesus is very much real and very much concerned about the details of their lives. the frailties of their bodies. the brokenness of their heart. And that He has a storehouse of provision ready and waiting to meet those needs.
I've been thinking...okay, so how do I come to that place where my spirit is so filled with the knowledge of God's compassion and healing that I will not falter in believing He WANTS to heal? through me. consistently.
The thing that has been repeatedly coming to mind is this: I must saturate myself in the Truth to the extent that it becomes part of me. that it becomes a natural working of my brain to expect the results that He has promised.
“Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of God” Romans 10:17
And it occurred to me that this is exactly what I do before each of my children's deliveries....
One of the ways that I begin to spiritually and emotionally prepare myself for the God-given pain free labor and delivery of my baby is to saturate my mind with Truth. To remind myself over and over and over again of what God says about me, my body, and my baby until it becomes second nature to walk in that promise.
I intentionally guard my heart against what other people say to expect when having a baby, rehearsing over and over to myself what the Lord says. I continually build up my faith by reading other people's miraculous testimonies of birth. Marveling in what the Lord did for them and their deliveries when they held onto His promises.
In the beginning of my faith-building process (when pregnant with Charis), I wouldn't even listen to any one's horror stories of their births. I didn't want to fill my brain with fear so I'd either walk away or tune them out. Now, I don't have to guard myself as carefully. For my brain has been trained to not latch on to their stories. I remind myself of my previous deliveries, reliving the moments over and over in my head. I walk myself through the upcoming delivery, imaging all the detailed miraculous aspects of it.
Essentially, I saturate my thought process, my emotions, my imaginations, my expectations, my spirit with faith. Reflecting on the best possible outcome based on what God has promised and is challenging me to believe.
SO I can only assume that it's the same when building up my level of faith concerning being a vessel of manifested physical healing.
I just need to saturate my everything with Truth. To focus on what JESUS says, not what man says, about healing for today. To remind myself of all the miraculous healings that I've either experienced personally or been a part of to some degree. To read other people's stories and testimonies of how God has moved in their lives.
At this point, I'm reading a autobiography by Oral Roberts. And I'm planning on reading and rereading Matthew through Acts for the next few months, so my spirit can really get a hold of Jesus and his Father's heart for miracles.
My heart is to be a pure and untainted vessel that allows Him to move powerfully through me touching a dying world to life. Because...
"For the Kingdom of God does not consist in talk but in power." 1 Cor. 4.20
After all, he did say that we would do "greater things". I don't want to wait until I get to heaven to find out what He intended that to mean in my life. I want to see it manifested now. I want to see people healed now. On earth as it is in heaven...
