Closure

The last few days have been an emotional roller coaster. During the day when children loudly play underfoot, there was no time for thinking. or mourning.

Then night would come in all its unavoidable silence. It was in these moments when questions. tears. and pain would emerge.

Jet would just sit and listen as I'd talk and cry and pray, rolling the loss around and around in my head. Things emerged during that private time with my husband that I desire to neither articulate nor share. But for me, those raw moments were the path to closure.

And Today felt like complete closure: The funeral and celebration of her life. A gathering of her family and friends.

During the Celebration, a few of her family shared their hearts. Just hearing them (her brother and sister) speak of the Comfort they've received ...the way that they had seen God in the midst of it...brought immeasurable comfort to my own heart. The Grace that surrounded them somehow covered me.

I know in my heart that Janet dances with the King. And that the King has made a way for those who deeply grieve for her earthly absence. Though I am fully able to embrace my grieve, I also fully embrace Him.

He is faithful. And I choose to wait and watch for His Faithfulness to unfold in this situation. In all its detailed splendor.

Thank you for praying. Please continue to pray for her husband and children. That they will continue to feel surrounded and held. Even after the last flower arrangement has been put away. And the night comes with all its unavoidable silence.