Yet. I can't get around the fact that the kinds of things that have been happening just can't be fully recorded. That is, not if you're going to full relish in the moment.
...This morning as Raquel and I snuggled together, I couldn't help but to be completely overwhelmed with how adorable she was being. the way her mouth was moving to try out new sounds. the way she looked up at me. the way she kept touching my nose with her pointer finger as she lay there.
And I have to admit, I was tempted to get the video camera out so I could record that sweet, sweet moment in time. to replay it over and over again years from now.
But I knew once the camera came out, it'd lost the authenticity of the moment. It'd run the risk of taking on the role of paparazzi and reporter, sacrificing my ability to be a participant. forfeiting my chance to truly interact in the moment.
And that's what these past 6 months have been like.
While I've been so tempted to jump on the computer and take note of all that's happening in my life and relationship with Jesus, I know that once I step back to record, I'd actually miss the depth of the intention of God.
I told one friend it's been like I've been standing on the edge of Heaven. allowed to hear and watch some of what's going on. Every day it's been something new. Another challenge. Another insight. Another moment of bondage being broken.
I've seen angels and demons. I've physically felt the sting of spiritual warfare. I've been completely overwhelmed with the outpouring of Heavenly insight and new direction. etc etc etc.
In a word, it's been OVERWHELMING. In the best best best possible way.
And yes, I do hope to share soon. But for now, I wanted to tell you where I've been --> a fly on the wall of Heaven, desperately trying to interact, not document.
