For now :)
Today has been a rough one. That, I cannot deny. And just now, as I sat here watching Jet dismantle the computer, I began to wonder...what the heck is he doing?!!
*wink* Okay. So that's not all I wondered.
...This thought, too, crossed my mind:
Is today's emotional onslaught tied, at all, to the vision God allowed me to see last night?(refer to previous post)
Could these raging ups and downs that I've been battling be at all tied to the fact that, in the Spirit, God released me of any and all baggage that I was carrying? (which by the way, I have to say Praise you, Jesus!) ...and in the process, ALSO stripped away any and all "masks" that I had on as well? leaving me truly feeling vunerable and weak?!!
Is that what I've been up against today!? The stripping of all the things that I've used, in the past, to hide behind? The resulting "nakedness," so to speak?
I really don't know...? As I honestly don't feel like I've been in hiding...covered in pretenses. (Though the Word does say that we don't even know our own hearts) But the whole thing is still very new in my heart; this half-formed revelation. But...it's coming.
Yet, the choice still remains. Do I dance before the Lord in JOY that I am weak...uncovered? Or do I hide, like Adam, in shame and attempt, once more, to cover up?
Lord, I do want to come before you uncovered...undone. So that your strength can be made Perfect....through my weakness. And though I'm yet to truly understand what all this means, I do know that I WANT to chose your strength over mine.
Funny to me that I've been saying for a long time that I felt like God was up to something. But somehow, in my ...was it pride?...thought it'd be a more glorious road. *laughing*
Anyway. There's MY heart on a platter, eh? Completely out there...for all to see. But just keeping it real, people. This journey that I'm on with the Father.
It may not always be glamorous, but it will always be worth it.
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It may not be glamorous,l but it will always be worth it. AMEN sister AMEN.
I was just talking to someone about the "masks" we hide behind to keep a "safe" distance and a good appearance before others.
ok i said i would spare you lengthy comments....:o) (not really bc i can never completely shut up)...but this one needs no comment...you are on a journey and we simply get to watch the process unfold........:o) its exciting....
speaking of pics...your daughter (eldest or middle) looks just like your mom...i mean, good grief...spitting image...IMO...
Honey, it's ALL connected. I think it's totally cool that God is working in you. I get scared when I don't feel Him working in me...though it can always be a little messy.
Your hubby sounds like mine- tearing computers apart an' all!
Bless your heart! Stayed bowed down before His throne...
...it is totally worth it all!
Oh the stories we could share. I often think "I don't think I will tell anyone what God has reveiled because people would think I am crazy".
But please know...I GET THIS! More than you know...I get this.
My prayer for you is that he will continue to actually in your face SHOW you his visions for your life.
MAY YOU BE BLESSED BECAUSE YOU SHARED!
I appreciate your honesty in sharing this time. God is going to do great things as you continue to lay your life down before Him!
It is hard to give control to the Lord. It is crazy that I resist Him at times!
I am sitting here with tears pouring down my face. Can I put into words how much this post means to me? I read it twice, the second time with new revelation. I just finished writing a post about being released from burdens, and felt led to come here. Oh how good our God is. Your post brought me peace... THANK YOU. ~K
I was reading this by T. Austin-Sparks this morning as part of an article he wrote called STRIPPING DOWN TO CHRIST ALONE:
What the Lord needs is that instrument by which He can keep His mind about things in view...and call back to it - an
instrument which will pay the price of being refused a hearing, of ostracism, of false imputations, slander, and cruel
calumny. This needs faith, boldness, and preparedness to leave all vindication with the Lord.
Beloved fellow members of Christ, will you have it urged upon you to seek the Lord for "a Spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Him" - a pure spiritual unveiling of the Lord Jesus as God's representation of His thought concerning all these things; and as He gives you light,
will you seek grace to stand for Him in the day of His need... with all boldness, and whatever the price? All other questions will answer themselves as you do this. †
Here is the chorus of a song by Natalie Grant that as of a year ago now I have had to continually go back to. Don't know if it will mean the same to you, but Oh how it helps to remember that I don't have to put up a mask for HIM and its becuase of Him that I can take my mask down for anyone!
The Real Me....
"But you see the real me, hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil Me completely, I'm loosening my grasp, there's no need to mask
My frailty, because you see the real me"
Hey Christin!
Just wanted to respond back to your message. Thanks for visiting! Please come by again. I may need some lessons from you on this thing!
May the revelation bring you to a new place of joy. May you walk in the fullness that God has for you and where there was masking tape- let their be glorious fingerprints of God for the world to see.
be blessed
Kimmie
mama to 6
one homemade and 5 adopted
It's good when God speaks, isn't it? All I can say is that feeling vulnerable is a hard place to be, almost as hard as seeing ourselves without the masks we use. Can't wait to hear what else God shows you!
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